Clearing Things
Today I stood in the garage with my Dad going through the remnants of my parents life. They have been married and together for 54 years from when they were 17 years old. My Dad tears up as he watches my Mum’s picture in what we call ‘Mum’s room’. In every little thing stored in their garage there is history, stories about all those moments they shared.
A Lonely Path To Walk
Being with people who are grieving is not an easy place to be in. Many of us want to fix things and offer well-meant solutions, space-fillers or clichés. This cannot be resolved or fixed. The process of grief has no set timeline or deadline, it is always ever a starting point with a line that […]
Sometimes I Break Down…
Sometimes I break down Out of the blue Like unexpected storm Which hits the land For no real apparent reason Grief kicks in And surprises me with its despair And I stand there helplessly As my skirt gets soaked by rain Vulnerability shows its face The layers of ‘I’m fine’ are wearing thin Penetrated by […]
Grief – A Very Personal Experience
Today marks 2 months since Amya Mirica passed away. Yesterday Chris and I went out for the first time in the evening and left Ananda Mae with my sister. We went to the classical concert of the Brandenburg Orchestra of which we have season’s tickets. The previous concert was exactly 2 months ago, the evening […]
My Child Died – A Conversation Stopper
Many people are lost for words when they hear me say that my child has passed away. Losing one’s own child is one of those experiences that we don’t know how to deal with – an untimely death. I want to encourage people to dare to speak to me about my child, to mention her […]
Remembering 1 September 2011 – Hope&Passions coming into this world as Amya Mirica Hope & Ananda Mae Passion
This is the whole day of the birth of my girls – 4 weeks ago. This was written one week after looking back… May one day like this be an inspiration to mothers. Remembering 1 September 2011 – Hope&Passions coming into this world as Amya Mirica Hope & Ananda Mae Passion A week ago… […]
It’s 4 weeks today
4 weeks ago I gave birth. I wonder where I was in all this time in between. It seems that my body was moving through the e-motions and yet my memory is lacking. What just happened to me and my life? Nothing seems to be simple anymore. In some moments nothing makes sense. I find […]
Grieving the Loss of My Child
Having given birth to my twin girls just 4 weeks ago and having had to say good-bye to one of them just two days afterwards, I am experiencing all the facets of grief. This gives me a totally new perspective and a truly personal relationship with what is probably one of the deepest emotions to […]